tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-82012659739094762262024-03-05T02:33:40.257-08:00N=1My personal experiment with food and exercise to find the best combination to bring the best health, fitness and body composition ever. I weight train, do triathlons and eat a paleo style diet.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger1337125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-57354251236883581352024-03-04T15:26:00.000-08:002024-03-04T15:26:12.175-08:00<p> It's Monday Marth 4th and offically the first Monday of March. </p><p><br /></p><p>What better time to do some hard core planning :D I'm sick of feeling like I'm constantly half assing. Stuck in underwhelm. I feel like I'm practicing toxic self-acceptance. There's a lack of urgency that's leading to continuous postponement. I'm not moving forward with my goals, and I try to convince myself that 'it's ok,' we'll just 'be better' tomorrow... but tomorrow never comes.</p><p>Part of this involves the mind shift that 'working toward my goals' is fulfilling and meaningful. Or, to put it more simply, "Enjoying the process'. Maybe it's better to evaluate some of those times when I feel like I put my short term enjoyment over my long term goal.</p><p>1) Tuesday night, cheesecake and beer. While I planned some cheesecake and beer, it went from 1 beer to 2 to 3 too.. maybe four? And a slice of cheesecake turned into two, and some bite, licks and taists of more throughout the night...</p><p>2) Giving into urges several times over the second half of the week. Snacking on bread and sweets.</p><p>3) One large whiskey on Friday night, that turned into two...</p><p>4) Saturday - 2 slices of pizza and I was not hungry..anymore but instead I continued to eat and had four. Then, I had candy on top of that and still was having urges. Had two big cup candies on the way to karaoke, and then stopped for burrito and chips on the way home and THEN had a slice of bread when I got home. I'm pretty sure all the extra food was caused by alcohol making my blood sugar tank. (plus staying up late/tired)</p><p>I'm not sure what to do with all these urges for sweets/carbs. They hit when I'm not hungry, so I can't use that as an excuse. There doesn't seem to be any kind of stress or negative thoughts associated... I just am having 'big urges' for stuff. Maybe I'm tired? Maybe it's because I've been allowing soda back into my life? I'm going to cut out the Diet Pepsi and see if this week is easier.</p><p>I guess the big, most important question to ask myself is, "What do I want to do differently this week?" </p><p>White knuckling isn't the answer, and 'try harder' is also not a thing. I want this to be easy. I want to enjoy the process. I want the 'hit' of the instant win.</p><p>So, here's what I've decided.</p><p>1) Plan. I've really resited planning my food cause.. I don't know why. but all too often I've found myself 'foraging' and often making quick, impulsive and unsatisfying food choices. I want to work toward choices that feel good and reinforce my lifestyle. What's important (and hard) is that I don't turn planning into DIETING. often when I plan I plan all the 'good things' for weight loss and I struggle with a balance approach. It's very much all or nothing. I'm either planning good things or I'm not planning and indulging. I want to PLAN for indulgences but do it mindfully. Plan for GOOD things - plan for what matters. I haven't figured out what that looks like yet, but hey, I don't have to have it all figured out do I?</p><p>2) Hydrate! anytime I have an urge, drink some water! I think my body really loves/wants water more than I imagine.</p><p>3) Reflect on my Wins - when I'm practicing self-reflection and journalling regularly - I succeed. Now it could be that I'm just better at journalling when I'm being successful :D But I need to work back into daily reflection. I think that happens naturally when I'm actually planning each day. Doing a plan requires that I reflect on the day too. For both of these things I'm going to put time for journaling and planning back on to my calendar and than honour my calendar. I wish I had other ideas on how to 'celebrate' my small daily wins too. adding that to my to-do list.</p><p>hmm three things to experiment with this week seems like enough...</p><p>ooo - I had a thought...<br /><br />I love to play DnD so I'm going to make myself a random treasure table. At the end of the day, when I'm reflecting on my day and cataloging my wins, I'm going to random a D20 and get something off the table.</p><p>:D winning!</p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-4854605046753617192023-08-31T11:21:00.002-07:002023-08-31T11:21:40.944-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">I just had a thought. Yes, I was listening to </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><a class="x1i10hfl xjbqb8w x6umtig x1b1mbwd xaqea5y xav7gou x9f619 x1ypdohk xt0psk2 xe8uvvx xdj266r x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r xexx8yu x4uap5 x18d9i69 xkhd6sd x16tdsg8 x1hl2dhg xggy1nq x1a2a7pz xt0b8zv x1qq9wsj xo1l8bm" href="https://www.facebook.com/groups/475999812411498/user/1008800023/?__cft__[0]=AZU4iW3hJm7MT2cLPj_6WSmlR38mZuG9vYpIDo5hOH61AtweAfpCea4ohqiZrV3TfnXbnROb5f16b-6MKWDQgMKMq37cqaQckC36dRTtbVLjjgM7DNzatuACNnkVrr8RufCnxi2pfcZiKgf4jIiXSSYx&__tn__=-]K-R" role="link" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: transparent; border-color: initial; border-style: initial; border-width: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; cursor: pointer; display: inline; font-family: inherit; list-style: none; margin: 0px; outline: none; padding: 0px; text-align: inherit; text-decoration-line: none; touch-action: manipulation;" tabindex="0"><span class="xt0psk2" style="display: inline; font-family: inherit;">Corinne Crabtree</span></a></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;"> at the time, but it had nothing to do with what she was talking about. It just kind of came out of the blue and popped into my head </span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I needed to gain this weight back. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Seriously, I was starting my last set of squats and my brain was doing it’s usual aimless wondering (one of the reason I love to work out) and suddenly it paused, looked at me and said ‘we needed to gain this weight’</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>stopped and went ‘What!?’</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">And my brain nodded and said, “there were things we didn’t learn the first time so we needed to gain this weight so we could learn them…”</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">The sense of rightness…and peace that came over me! I can’t even tell you! </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Not only does it make this work I’m doing seem even more valuable…But, now I know, if I ever gain weight again… it’s not because I’m a failure. It’s because there are things I still need to learn. And this was how I needed to learn them. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">(For those who don’t know me - I joined in April 2019 and from then to March 2020 went from 295 to 237. I then started gaining and got up to April 2022 I was 283. I am now 249. I didn’t think I had been beating myself up about it. But after that thought I realized my inner drill Sergeant was still saying ‘you just didn’t do enough, try hard enough… blah blah blah’ </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">But none of that is true! I just had lessons still to learn. We all do!))</div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-58885951378699792852023-08-31T06:00:00.001-07:002023-08-31T11:22:15.220-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">I’ve been more hungrier than usual this week (and judging myself for it) having bigger urges than normal (and judging myself for it) and not seeing the results I like (and…you get it)</span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Today, my Aunt Flo visited after being absent for three months. Seems like ‘the pause’ isn’t here yet. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">And lesson learned. Sometimes it’s just my body going through some stuff and I need to give myself a little grace <span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="🙂" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t4c/1/16/1f642.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span> and trust.</div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-19082702838583983072023-08-30T11:22:00.001-07:002023-08-31T11:22:49.012-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">I did my assessment and set my weekly goal two days ago but today I’m going to make some changes (this is what it means to be agile)What I realized is my current goals were missing something … I had forgotten to check in with my vision. My weight loss vision is weight loss without all the diet bullshit. And I realized while assessing yesterday's day.. I've been using planning as a way to sneak that diet bullshit back into my life... (probably why I've resisted planning so </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">much!)</span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So, when I started having urges ... and those urges felt like white knuckling... and when I gave into those urges and went off plan ... I used the 'off plan' part as a reason to tune out.. hurry up and eat... and piled an overeat on top of an off plan eat...</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I also realized that another faulty 'diet thinking' habit I have. I have a tendency when I'm 'focused on weight loss' to see how much restriction I can 'tolerate' and still live my life... as in, I'm ok with leaving two bites behind, that didn't feel crummy so let's see if I can leave three...Just how hungry can I stand to be? and then I start having big urges for sugar and carbs (wonder why? I'm hungry - duh) I grab a candy bar and then go 'Oh - this isn't on plan! better eat it fast!' and mindless eating (see above)</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So.. here's what I'm going to change... I'm not going to plan (*gasp*) rather than working on the habit of a doable plan AND the habit of listening to doable hunger I'm only going to work on hunger for ALL the rest of this week. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">What does that mean for me? It means I eat whatever I'm hungry for... want a candy bar? fine - have a candy bar. But you're going to eat that fucker mindfully. You're going to slow down and actually have every bite. You are going to chew it, and not gulp it. you're going to acknowledge now much is left with each bite instead of looking down and being surprised that 'It's all gone already!? I need a second one! I didn't even enjoy that one!'</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">And - I'm going to EAT when I'm hungry and actually eat to enough... Stop playing this restriction game with myself. it's not about how little I can have and still have a life... it's how much I can enjoy and still get results!</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Do you hear that dictator BRAIN!! the goal is abundance with results!!!</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So, how does this look in action?</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">One - like I said.. no planning. I need to prove to my planning brain that I can do this 'eat anything' thing. (the caveat to that is my weekly dinner planning cause there is nothing that stressing me out at the end of the day more than no knowing 'what's for dinner?'.</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">two - Im going to continue to use my slow eats app. Even for formally 'bad' foods. If these truly are things I love I want to take the time to enjoy them. Not feel like I'm one of the dogs trying to gulp down a treat before anyone finds out I cleared the counter. I did this a few times last week when I had a cookie and it was actually a cool experience. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">three - Make sure I'm truly eating to enough and not just 'not hungry' (eat to 2 instead of 0 to the OG members) since Slow Eats let's me track how many bites I'm taking - that might help me measure. I'm pretty confident that there's a pretty normal 'range' of bites but I need to be open to experiment with them and willing to listen even MORE than I have been.</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">four - eat when I'm hungry. small letter hungry not HUNGRY! as my kiddo and I like to say - listen for Kathy voice hunger not Corinne voice hunger. Maybe that means timed eating.. or even just a reminder to check in. (I think ADD brain makes me miss hunger cues a lot) - or, I'll acknowledge hunger and then forger I was going to eat... I'll need to get more specific on that moving forward...</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">anyone had success moving from only noticing you're hungry when you're HUNGRY? what worked for you?</div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-34731277148575346382023-08-28T11:23:00.001-07:002023-08-31T11:23:20.562-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: var(--primary-text); font-family: inherit; font-size: 0.9375rem;">My (personal) deep dive assessment of last week...(I don't have any data from last week - so can't really compair)</span></p><div class="x1e56ztr" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin-bottom: 8px;"><span class="x193iq5w xeuugli x13faqbe x1vvkbs xlh3980 xvmahel x1n0sxbx x6prxxf xvq8zen xo1l8bm xzsf02u" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; color: var(--primary-text); font-family: inherit; font-size: 0.9375rem; line-height: 1.3333; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; word-break: break-word;"><br />Days Planned 7/7 (up from 0)<br />Total meals eaten 27<br />% of those meals that were off plan 14.8<br />% of those meals that I ate when not hungry 11.1<br />% of those meals that I overate 7.4%<br /><br />I didn't start doing 'discovery' on my overeats until later in the week but from the data I did get<br /><br />2 "Eating when not hungry" were trigger by "Seeing something and thinking - that looks good/fun etc"<br />1 also included "Bored"<br /><br />1 overeat was "This tastes good"<br /><br />I also used an App during my meal (slow eats) 76% of the time (again, started it mid week) and it helped EVERY SINGLE TIME to remind me to slow down and evaluate the next bite - I left bites behind 29.6 % of the time<br /><br />0 off plan drinking<br /><br />I worked out 5 days last week (on plan)<br /><br />I drank at least 64 oz of water every day<br /><br />I averaged 6:50 of sleep each night<br /><br />Results<br /><br />I was down 3.9lbs this morning at weigh in<br />Resting heart rate was the most stable it's been in AGES<br />(need to double check my blood pressure - haven't done that in a while)<br /><br />Measurements will happen end of this week as I do that monthly but I did fit into a NON-STRETCH pair of size 18W jeans<br /><br />So what am I going to ...<br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-weight: 600;">Keep doing Cause it worked?<br /></span></span><br />making a daily plan<br />logging each meal when I eat (I created a form through google to ask me to answer the questions I want to track)<br />Keep working out/drinking water/sleep on point<br />Journaling on my 'why' for making and following a plan</span></div><div class="x1e56ztr" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin-bottom: 8px;"><span class="x193iq5w xeuugli x13faqbe x1vvkbs xlh3980 xvmahel x1n0sxbx x6prxxf xvq8zen xo1l8bm xzsf02u" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; color: var(--primary-text); font-family: inherit; font-size: 0.9375rem; line-height: 1.3333; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; word-break: break-word;"><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-weight: 600;">Stop doing cause it isn't working or I'm not ready</span></span><br /><br />I don't have anything to put here this week<br /><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-weight: 600;">Start doing as an experiment<br /><br /></span></span>I've decided to just focus on my current experiments and not add anything new<br /><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-weight: 600;">Goal for the upcoming week<br /><br /></span></span>7/7 plans<br />water: at least 64 oz<br />Sleep: aim for 7 hrs<br />log every meal<br />5 days of workouts<br /><br />1.75 pounds</span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-57637782515644106652023-08-27T11:23:00.001-07:002023-08-31T11:23:54.131-07:00<p> <span style="color: var(--primary-text); font-family: inherit; font-size: 0.9375rem; white-space-collapse: preserve;">I think it’s Sooooo important to talk to ourselves this way! This is this morning’s TDL</span></p><div style="font-family: inherit;"><div class="" dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><div class="x1iorvi4 x1pi30zi x1swvt13 xjkvuk6" data-ad-comet-preview="message" data-ad-preview="message" id=":rgd:" style="font-family: inherit; padding: 4px 16px;"><div class="x78zum5 xdt5ytf xz62fqu x16ldp7u" style="display: flex; flex-direction: column; font-family: inherit; margin-bottom: -5px; margin-top: -5px;"><div class="xu06os2 x1ok221b" style="font-family: inherit; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-top: 5px;"><span class="x193iq5w xeuugli x13faqbe x1vvkbs xlh3980 xvmahel x1n0sxbx x1lliihq x1s928wv xhkezso x1gmr53x x1cpjm7i x1fgarty x1943h6x x4zkp8e x3x7a5m x6prxxf xvq8zen xo1l8bm xzsf02u x1yc453h" dir="auto" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; color: var(--primary-text); display: block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 0.9375rem; line-height: 1.3333; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; word-break: break-word;"><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="font-family: inherit; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Dear past self. Thank you for sticking to the plan and not over drinking yesterday. Yes, there were some moments of FOMo last night but in the morning light, I can acknowledge wasn’t hard. Just had to listen to a little whining and the true is the alcohol would not have made the night ANY better. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="font-family: inherit; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Waking up this morning after a good night’s sleep. No headache, not dehydrated being able to <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>remember exactly who I talked to and what I did is a gift I gave myself!</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="font-family: inherit; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Also thank you to the me that made my plan. So I was able to enjoy the day having eaten the right kinds and timing of food that I was able to enjoy my planned drinks without it going to my head and opening the door to drunk binging on food and more drink. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="font-family: inherit; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I didn’t weigh in this morning because honestly, my major why’s for what I planned was not for the scale. 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font-family: inherit; margin-left: -100px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="x1e558r4" style="font-family: inherit; padding-left: 4px;">Shel Dammann, Christine Coulter Davis and 9 others</span></span></span><div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="x1e558r4" style="font-family: inherit; padding-left: 4px;"><br /></span></span></div></div></span></div></div><div class="x9f619 x1n2onr6 x1ja2u2z x78zum5 x2lah0s x1qughib x1qjc9v5 xozqiw3 x1q0g3np xykv574 xbmpl8g x4cne27 xifccgj" style="align-items: stretch; background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #65676b; display: flex; flex-flow: row; flex-shrink: 0; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; justify-content: space-between; margin: -6px; position: relative; z-index: 0;"></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-6961088957394628952023-08-25T11:24:00.001-07:002023-08-31T11:24:17.624-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">More to share! (you can tell when Shawn is working the program!)</span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Iamma gunna tell ya how I got here first than give you my 'ah-ha' (I'll try to keep it short!)</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I started planning again this week. AND I started writing down my WHYs (other than weight loss) for doing the four basics (really mostly about writing and following a plan - cause those are my trouble spots)</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So, <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>today I was getting that 'Friday Fuck it Feeling' and this was the conversation in my head</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">"I want a beer"</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">"No, I really want to keep up with this weight loss"</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">"I have a choice. I can choose a beer or I can chose lose weight"</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">"That's a sucky choice - no wonder I give up so often - what if I say fuck it to weight loss, who needs weight loss anyway?"</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">then I had a brain wave</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">"But, I made a plan NOT to have a beer tonight - so the choice is ACTUALLY, 'I can choose a beer - or I can choose to show respect for my past self who made this plan!'"</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">FIRE!!! I choose to show myself respect! </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Below the fold info:</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I write a plan so that I don't have to worry about for the rest of the day. Planning food keeps my long term goals in mind (health and fitness as well as weight)</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Following my plan shows self respect. It strengthens my commitment muscle and my consistency muscle. It shows I care about my past self (who made the plan) and the future self who lives with the consequences of my choices</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Food tastes better when I'm hungry. The first bite on a empty stomach is incredibly satisfying - each bite after that is less so until they aren't even 'worth' it. If I start already 'full' I'll miss that first oh so satisfying bite. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Stopping at enough makes it easier to digest, keeps me from being in discomfort. Eating more = more discomfort and food is less and less enjoyable to eat. Stopping at enough is honoring my body. It is self care. Stopping at enough means I can be hungry sooner and get the satisfaction of the 'first bite' again.</div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-41260399467810836622023-08-24T11:24:00.001-07:002023-08-31T11:24:39.822-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">zomg, ZOMG, ZOMG!!!</span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So, one of the things I've been working on is stopping at enough. Like others I've struggled with my enough signals and I realize that (for me...) most of the time it is because I eat too fast... and/or eat distracted and just mindlessly shovel food in my mouth until I hit bottom.</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I've been working on ways to make mindful eating easier. and I found something that (so far) is working. it's an app called Slow Eats (I have an iphone and it cost less than $2) <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>(So far I have also tested FINT --- was ok but didn't love it, Eat Slower -- didn't like it at all, In the Moment: was good for pausing before eating)</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">What you do is you set how long you want to go between bites and it will 'sound' or vibrate at that interval. This morning, since I'm at my desk eating while I work I set it to sound - no one would hear it but me. I set it to 30 seconds (will probably increase gradually). </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">it goes "Plonk" I take a bite and set my fork down.. then do other things for a bit (start reading an email etc). It goes "Plonk" I take another bite and do other things for a bit.. It goes "Plonk" repeat. Until it went "Plonk" and I didn't pick up my fork. it went "Plonk" again and I didn't pick up my fork.. after about the fourth time I realized... "Um... that must mean I've had enough!?"</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Dude there is a LOT of food left behind! <span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="😃" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t51/1/16/1f603.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span> </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I can't wait to continue to experiment with this!</div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-79126181247447346832023-08-24T06:00:00.001-07:002023-08-31T11:25:05.005-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">I’ve been toying with setting ‘real’ weight loss goals again and once again ALL the shit comes up. I’ve been doing this on a semi regular basis for a couple of years now. But, now, some of the things I’ve been telling myself to counter the old shitties are starting to feel like trueths. That’s progress!!</span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">My company is having a celebration for it’s employees in Jan - a cruise in the Bahamas- it also happens to be my 55th birthday! So lately I’ve been asking myself “I wonder <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>how much I could lose by then?” (I have another cruise in Feb - so triple the want to look and feel the best I can)</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Earlier this weekI heard that same ol’ thought “well, if your going to lose weight, you better have a plan… time to clean out the cupboards, get out your calorie counter and cut out all the carbs… where’s my food list!” </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Immediately, I felt the panic, the need to run away or fight. But then I asked that voice “WHY!? Why implement all these rules when I’m not even following the basics of all basic rules?? (Making and following a plan) how can I say that that won’t work, that it isn’t enough when I haven’t even bothered to be consistent enough to know?”</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So, I’ve been making plans this week and assessing…and I’ve been journaling on why each of the basics is important (for more than weight loss) </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">But, I heard ‘the dictator’ loud and clear again this morning (i didn’t lose 10 pounds in three days after all <span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="🤪" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t80/1/16/1f92a.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span>)</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">“You are broken! You did all those stupid diets in the past and now you are broken. The only way for you to lose weight is to be deprived and desperately hungry - always. Also working out 2+ hours a day”</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I had to take a deep breath and calm down. I realized I was giving myself two losing scenarios. Either starve or be overweight. And for about two years now I’ve chosen to just fix my thoughts about being overweight. It was ‘easier’</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">But, as I said, I’m starting to see the lies for what they are. Those are NOT my only choices!! Or to be more honest - I’m willing to say I don’t KNOW those are my only choices. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I may not be able to let go of all the fucked up thinking I have about weight loss. But can I just… make one small change and see what happens? If I don’t lose weight I haven’t hurt anything. I’m no worse off than I am today. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I know, this is a little (a lot) rambly. And maybe it’s because the things I’m learning are a little ‘no duh!’ Instead of big profound ‘New thinking’ </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Maybe I’m just trying to confirm for folks that yes, it is possible to think - to start to believe new thoughts. And even when you don’t the first 100 times… and it doesn’t feel like your making progress… you are. One day you’ll wake up and the dictator will scream at you “Today we’re going to eat 1000 calories and no carbs! If your serious about losing weight get serious!” </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">And your inner wild child will say “No! Fuck weight loss it’s more fun to be fat!!”</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">And you’ll tell them both “Hold on! There is another choice!” </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">And they will both go … “Oh! Yeah! Thanks for the reminder”</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">And you will physically feel the change in your body and realize they both believe you and believe in you and… it’s amazing.</div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-5280669068074600372023-07-30T11:26:00.000-07:002023-08-31T11:28:45.152-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">The photo on the left popped up for me today as a memory from 2018. Before NOBS. </span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">And then the right is a photo from last month…</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><br /></div><br /><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2Ri8an7YQ5fs49xyfJwAXFc7-EAAoAxlddVPRzecTkMl_weyjaMynLNKKmHWte6Kjfk4LMZcYSRHgrNZ8KP7dR7LjPrqLiTvC-O2puwD_C1gnfguBBjB6i97vUN7L6tLnvqHWo-VYuWvTZ-7QsTtRhCAa3fofXuNTxeNAM_kW7rM_KTCdnBmG06i_4bqu/s526/363371833_10231100177193533_5482256358520879586_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="526" data-original-width="526" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2Ri8an7YQ5fs49xyfJwAXFc7-EAAoAxlddVPRzecTkMl_weyjaMynLNKKmHWte6Kjfk4LMZcYSRHgrNZ8KP7dR7LjPrqLiTvC-O2puwD_C1gnfguBBjB6i97vUN7L6tLnvqHWo-VYuWvTZ-7QsTtRhCAa3fofXuNTxeNAM_kW7rM_KTCdnBmG06i_4bqu/s320/363371833_10231100177193533_5482256358520879586_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-27025632263401673642023-07-28T11:27:00.001-07:002023-08-31T11:28:31.592-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">;tldr I've figured out a way to track data that works for me and most importantly, I've found a reason I like for doing this. This new perspective has made me realize that having a reason you like is not just for justifying choices, but also for motivating positive behaviors.</span></p><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">My brain started thinking about urges today. It began with a conversation about finances - and me thinking about how much of my spending is/was impulse buying. And that got me thinking about overall (lack of) impulse control and how that affects so much of my life with overspending, overdrinking, and overeating...</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">And then I realized I really have no data around my urges. I FEEL like most are 'I want that' thoughts - but I don't know for sure. I also don't know how often I give in to those urges - or really where my work around urges is...</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">I've also struggled with habit trackers and doing discovery worksheets and all that. I understood the value, but the format and/or the information I got out of it wasn't really what I needed (at that time).</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">So, today I asked myself - what do you want to know?</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">here is the list I created</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">1. how many urges I have and for what? (food, drink, other)</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">2. what I'm doing when I have an urge</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">3. what was the first trigger? if it was a thought - what was that thought</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">4. was I noticing any strong feelings?</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">5. Did I give into the urge?</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">From all of this I should be able to figure out any trends and from there, determine where my next course of action is....</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">So, I created a google survey that asks me some basic questions and saves them in a sheet. That sheet can be sorted etc to look for any trends!</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">And for my Atomic Habit people here's the skinny...</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">The Habit I want to create is to log every urge I have...</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">I made it obvious - by making the form easy to access and available on my phone's home screen and computer</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">I made it attractive - it's rewarding to check off the boxes and watch the information grow</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">I made it easy - a simple form that only asks questions that fill my data needs right now</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">satisfying -data is available immediately and I can work to grow progress over time with visual graphs</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">And one last power thought I had...</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">although I know data is important to the journey - I wasn't doing it. I think because deep down I didn't like my reasons. Data felt like it was a reason to shit on myself. It was 'all the info' or none at all, it was 'perfect every day' or useless...</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">But, today I found a reason I liked and a mindset that motivates me AND makes me happy and excited to do it.</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">it's funny because Corinne talks about 'having a reason you like' all the time... and I always associated that with things like 'making a food choice' or a way to 'justify' what would have previously 'bad' behavior...</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">But today I realized that the same can be said for positive behaviors. Do youu want to get them done? Have a reason you like!</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">I know, I know she's said it again and again...</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">wanna give up bread? cool, </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;"><span style="font-weight: 600;">have a reason you like</span></span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">wanna IF? cool, </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;"><span style="font-weight: 600;">have a reason you like<br /><br /></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">but today, internalized that in a way I hadn't experienced before...and as someone whose big thing has been diet trauma... who has avoided making a Good/Better/Best list who's avoided data and making plans... it just FINALLY clicked! the problem isn't the process... it's that I hadn't found. a reason I liked!</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px;">{{mind blown!}}</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-11801293554519696702023-07-27T11:29:00.001-07:002023-08-31T11:29:25.928-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: var(--primary-text); font-family: inherit; font-size: 0.9375rem;">Motivation isn't what we think it is...</span></p><div class="x1e56ztr" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin-bottom: 8px;"><span class="x193iq5w xeuugli x13faqbe x1vvkbs xlh3980 xvmahel x1n0sxbx x6prxxf xvq8zen xo1l8bm xzsf02u" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; color: var(--primary-text); font-family: inherit; font-size: 0.9375rem; line-height: 1.3333; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; word-break: break-word;"><br />I've always.' known' this. Heck <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a class="x1i10hfl xjbqb8w x6umtig x1b1mbwd xaqea5y xav7gou x9f619 x1ypdohk xt0psk2 xe8uvvx xdj266r x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r xexx8yu x4uap5 x18d9i69 xkhd6sd x16tdsg8 x1hl2dhg xggy1nq x1a2a7pz xt0b8zv x1qq9wsj xo1l8bm" href="https://www.facebook.com/groups/475999812411498/user/1008800023/?__cft__[0]=AZWSqqke8rJmdLyYjtfLgl1dWK5m6hYCMZOfL542Sij0X93oky4vjdahFGnAQuWjZndYkX2aBIwm9Egc-sdIYWbSJQlVDjHwDBuOH-8eGezUflKf5YFihnwQbXmBF8jwIf8xQRWqymuOGlcczGynerJY&__tn__=-]K-R" role="link" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: transparent; border-color: initial; border-style: initial; border-width: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; cursor: pointer; display: inline; font-family: inherit; list-style: none; margin: 0px; outline: none; padding: 0px; text-align: inherit; text-decoration-line: none; touch-action: manipulation;" tabindex="0"><span class="xt0psk2" style="display: inline; font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Corinne</span></span></a></span> talks about it a lot too, but I've just experienced this on a level that has been so eye-opening that I had to share... and I think will change my core values forever.<br /><br />You see - we're using the word "motivation" wrong. What we think it means is to be "happy or excited in a positive way to do something"<br /><br />When we say we're not motivated, what we are saying is "I'm not excited about doing this.. the thought of doing this doesn't bring a happy flutter to my heart"<br /><br />But, that's not what the real definition of motivation is. Motivation is "the state or condition of being motivated or having <span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-weight: 600;">a reason to act or accomplish something</span></span>"<br /><br />Motivation isn't being HAPPY to do something, it's simply having a reason to do it! In fact, we can be motivated to do something while feeling dread...<br /><br />Let me give you my current example. I am unemployed. I got laid off Mid-June and looking for a job is a lot of work - especially when you are getting NO results. I woke up this morning, sat on my favorite chair and thought ."Fuck I don't want to do this today"</span></div><div class="x1e56ztr" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin-bottom: 8px;"><span class="x193iq5w xeuugli x13faqbe x1vvkbs xlh3980 xvmahel x1n0sxbx x6prxxf xvq8zen xo1l8bm xzsf02u" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; color: var(--primary-text); font-family: inherit; font-size: 0.9375rem; line-height: 1.3333; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; word-break: break-word;"><br />I was dreading it.<br /><br />But was I still 'motived' to do it? Yeah! I still have a really BIG reason to open up my computer and find a few more places to send my resume to. A few more people to network with...<br /><br />So, think about this next time you want to moan about not being motived to do your workout, or make your plan, or drink your water, or stop at enough...<br /><br />Take out the word motivated and add "Not Happy" or "Not Excited" it changes it slightly, doesn't it?<br /><br />To me when I hear myself say "I'm not motivated to work out today" It sounds so reasonable... but when I say what I really mean "I'm not excited to work out today" I realize what a punny excuse it is.<br /><br />So instead, ask - do I have a reason for doing this thing? Is that reason good enough to 'motivate' you to do it; happy or not? excited or not? results or not? Even if it's just for today.<br /><br />Yeah - maybe the later work is to figure out how to be happy or excited... and that's an amazing place to be. But that's a 'nice to have' not a 'must have'. to be motivated.<br /><br />This is a game-changer for me</span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-90394190945543001452023-07-25T11:29:00.002-07:002023-08-31T11:29:51.045-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">Just sharing because I found this funny...</span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Today I was having some thoughts about an off plan/overeat last night that felt very close to a breakthrough...</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So, since I was sitting at my desk I opened google real quick and started a google doc. But then I thought - it's really really quiet I need something - I know! I'll play Corrine's journaling playlist on spotify while I write...</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Clicks around a bit and realizes I don't have spotify on this computer... opens aps, searches for <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>spotify...can't find it... then opens a browser and finds the download, downloads, loses the download file, finds it, installs, has to remember how to log in...browses playlists for a while, </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">ooo look! Hoobastank! they have a new album. Listens a bit.. starts browsing for a job again....it's been 30 minutes and I just remembered I was going to journal</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">--- Yeah, I'm going to it now!</div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-23440740120171383352023-07-24T11:30:00.005-07:002023-08-31T12:07:34.181-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">I joined PNP Tribe in 2019 - between then and March 2020 I lost almost 60 pounds. Then - well, we all know what happened to the world. Between March 2020 and Feb 2022 I gained back 46 pounds. </span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I came back from a trip to Disney World determined to figure it out..</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Did I immediately start dropping weight and eating perfect and hitting all my goals? Pfffft NO! But I came in determine to discover a lifestyle that would drop the weight, keep it off and feel like I was living in <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>integrity. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Did I immediately drop all my weight and live my fairy tale life?</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">NO!</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">But I’m ok with that. I’ve learned so much. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Do I wake up everyday with a perfect mindset?</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">NO! Ask my accountability daughter - I have my days when I’m frustrated as hell. But I don’t give up and I keep working to figure it all out. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">But because progress is going at the rate it’s supposed to go <span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="😉" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t57/1/16/1f609.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span> I don’t always see how far I’ve come. Today I happen to get out the photos I took almost a year and a half ago and. WoW. I’ve done some awesome stuff <span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="😉" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t57/1/16/1f609.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span></div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Here’s to celebrating how far I’ve come and for continuing to figure out the future me I want to be… </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Oh yeah… I’ve lost almost 35 pounds since Feb. almost back to pre-Covid weight! Almost to within 100 pounds of my goal! <span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="🙂" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t4c/1/16/1f642.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span> </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="🎉" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t8c/1/16/1f389.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span><span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; 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It turns out that I just needed to experiment a little with shape and styling. </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I feel youthful and sexy in these and it lightens my mood to wear them</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So, here is your reminder - <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a class="x1i10hfl xjbqb8w x6umtig x1b1mbwd xaqea5y xav7gou x9f619 x1ypdohk xt0psk2 xe8uvvx xdj266r x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r xexx8yu x4uap5 x18d9i69 xkhd6sd x16tdsg8 x1hl2dhg xggy1nq x1a2a7pz xt0b8zv x1qq9wsj xo1l8bm" href="https://www.facebook.com/hashtag/wearthedamnthing?__eep__=6&__cft__[0]=AZX0vHltoLZgjzYMywyRrhTYnnGCVR4MmPnDEsLF1O7Oph48rE6Oa9xzxiHUAJhqC1UXo3u_hvdxy6nhBqr1gWqP_Qzf09u4wkUP8LM_pTU6J0kUurkNIhNj37UTwHv8av8tsVviAfufR68NKwFYY4kB&__tn__=*NK-R" role="link" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; 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color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I feel a little like a fraud posting because I gave up giving a damn about what others thought about what I’m wearing…</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">But, maybe, somewhere in the tribe is someone who is shaped like me - or is also in her 50’s who thinks she can’t. So, here ya go… </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a class="x1i10hfl xjbqb8w x6umtig x1b1mbwd xaqea5y xav7gou x9f619 x1ypdohk xt0psk2 xe8uvvx xdj266r x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r xexx8yu x4uap5 x18d9i69 xkhd6sd x16tdsg8 x1hl2dhg xggy1nq x1a2a7pz xt0b8zv x1qq9wsj xo1l8bm" href="https://www.facebook.com/hashtag/wearthedamnthing?__eep__=6&__cft__[0]=AZUp0dUH4k1_EiwCLyWhlIR6CnmZhlmP4vZfimHgRTyeutgzoS9XQQNG8rn7BlUL5fmS8V5XBbSZ2GDpWzmflDrSpoZ-M5fgeK6D4CtxsCyyQkzf7rjtAdOPRvxSP-tq3RZqQ9MXz_yVgJRbACSnoPAr&__tn__=*NK-R" role="link" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; background-color: transparent; border-color: initial; border-style: initial; border-width: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; cursor: pointer; display: inline; font-family: inherit; list-style: none; margin: 0px; outline: none; padding: 0px; text-align: inherit; text-decoration-line: none; touch-action: manipulation;" tabindex="0">#wearthedamnthing</a></span></div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvAVz_tAt5eB8i099dI4Va7BGI_E2JY-Tx9xGQhlNmPFv8F7EK0XEovhwx0vKHGQ23T633lSgarR93Wp-zgH8_MXbD7FIKBMUphJY19rayIzcErzJOcBs-qfZ06FH7s4L8arjakFylTc6-eiMh2h2FiBqE95KIlEWw-CcU66BljsLA19hxS8GGxIkxySt9/s640/352806269_10230798326887464_7957343233575058175_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="640" data-original-width="501" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvAVz_tAt5eB8i099dI4Va7BGI_E2JY-Tx9xGQhlNmPFv8F7EK0XEovhwx0vKHGQ23T633lSgarR93Wp-zgH8_MXbD7FIKBMUphJY19rayIzcErzJOcBs-qfZ06FH7s4L8arjakFylTc6-eiMh2h2FiBqE95KIlEWw-CcU66BljsLA19hxS8GGxIkxySt9/s320/352806269_10230798326887464_7957343233575058175_n.jpg" width="251" /></a></div><br /><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-51855863219526479772023-06-18T12:12:00.002-07:002023-08-31T12:12:27.275-07:00<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTw3acZofUZifSWl_vy_ge1hJqdG3ijYsmRf2vsOrLpb5wMDGZQ50eF-yz1u_mPYW_yNJ1Wkk2FW4onJ5MY1HzZg1bzeP60wROjMAQxI6P-2ZOmsxHZQY2U6-onD24MBrfxg4RQB3a_G53ZWco8FIo5jDyvmwbEJMPXPh8f_r5XNPXN1TMUu4Hn-7XoYHG/s514/355342342_10230770964403419_976702844716031034_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="514" data-original-width="503" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTw3acZofUZifSWl_vy_ge1hJqdG3ijYsmRf2vsOrLpb5wMDGZQ50eF-yz1u_mPYW_yNJ1Wkk2FW4onJ5MY1HzZg1bzeP60wROjMAQxI6P-2ZOmsxHZQY2U6-onD24MBrfxg4RQB3a_G53ZWco8FIo5jDyvmwbEJMPXPh8f_r5XNPXN1TMUu4Hn-7XoYHG/s320/355342342_10230770964403419_976702844716031034_n.jpg" width="313" /></a></div><br /><p></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-70101412421153953712023-06-13T12:12:00.001-07:002023-08-31T12:13:00.028-07:00<div dir="auto" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">I've really been digging into my urges a lot - and why sometimes they feel hard. There's been a resistance to the process of weight loss that I couldn't quite put my finger on. </div><div dir="auto" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">I thought I had put my finger on it a few times but trying on those ideas while in the midst of an urge or while planning etc just wasn't fitting right. It was close... but...not...quite... there....</div><div dir="auto" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">Then, today, it hit me...since I have been sitting with urges, feeling my feelings and REALLY digging <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>in - not just with food, and drink but also with my spending... I've been hearing other thoughts...</div><div dir="auto" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">"oooo, I should go get my nose pierced again!" Has been a big one</div><div dir="auto" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">After sitting with that urge for a bit I realized... eating and drinking (and sometimes spending) was one of the few places where I allowed myself to be impulsive and/or spontaneous and there is a sense of excitement and novelty in that. </div><div dir="auto" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">Yes, I can find excitement and novelty in planned things. I can savor the anticipation of planned things too. But I think (for me) there's a happy place that has a combination of spontaneity and planned experiences. But for me - I think I tend toward enjoying the thrill of impulsiveness. </div><div dir="auto" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">So, now I just need to figure out when and what kind of spontaneous things I can indulge in that don't come in conflict with my other long term goals....</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-23015828391502844822023-06-09T12:13:00.005-07:002023-08-31T12:14:21.902-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">Google was kind enough to bring up this memory for me… and the accidental shot was almost exactly like the one I took yesterday. </span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Interesting comparison </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Other than my brain I’m not really a ‘transformation’ just yet. But I really needed this reminder that YES! I have made progress!</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>What’s funny is I alway lose weight first in my face, neck and shoulders. So I look like my neck has grown MUCH longer… <span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="🙂" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t4c/1/16/1f642.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span> </div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Here’s to 45 pounds gone!</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghmV1RxjQb3GpfPtCcbHZcRFevzoRpFDiT9PpaOROBd9DsaUbHJaUjrnVAZeni-I0nfhdxSesgYrxOFjIgQZmLlzinwYJJDbn27l-kW-lCNt7rgwrG8BtKmD-Sppb24yKSH7ZT7MXaCY0xnJEnTIydVrYwrMDNdJZlDgkmdLj2Q_Tqje9kXhraH_l7O82k/s2048/352956792_10230703128827572_3279153982737432708_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="2048" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghmV1RxjQb3GpfPtCcbHZcRFevzoRpFDiT9PpaOROBd9DsaUbHJaUjrnVAZeni-I0nfhdxSesgYrxOFjIgQZmLlzinwYJJDbn27l-kW-lCNt7rgwrG8BtKmD-Sppb24yKSH7ZT7MXaCY0xnJEnTIydVrYwrMDNdJZlDgkmdLj2Q_Tqje9kXhraH_l7O82k/s320/352956792_10230703128827572_3279153982737432708_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgiFl0rJ7YUPBSyg6h4DvwGDYk5cN8291PWIUTxCwcjnue-ehS7dnMtBOtwTAOkYVLpXsSk0bvVWbBtfzYmSpOZ8w0bbzSc4VegDu0IJBZjCJyRJDfIPYf4gQ6-MhTJgZr8GUDjWw0dk8R00zjQPItLMkbfKjysqv1mLtl5_CuXmRH-wZ4AVj64Fi5R8rEC/s2048/352518416_10230703143267933_2922004394704468544_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1538" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgiFl0rJ7YUPBSyg6h4DvwGDYk5cN8291PWIUTxCwcjnue-ehS7dnMtBOtwTAOkYVLpXsSk0bvVWbBtfzYmSpOZ8w0bbzSc4VegDu0IJBZjCJyRJDfIPYf4gQ6-MhTJgZr8GUDjWw0dk8R00zjQPItLMkbfKjysqv1mLtl5_CuXmRH-wZ4AVj64Fi5R8rEC/s320/352518416_10230703143267933_2922004394704468544_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><br /><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-27944684061111997002023-06-06T12:14:00.002-07:002023-08-31T12:15:05.512-07:00<div style="font-family: inherit;"><div class="" dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><div class="x1iorvi4 x1pi30zi x1l90r2v x1swvt13" data-ad-comet-preview="message" data-ad-preview="message" id=":r15j:" style="font-family: inherit; padding: 4px 16px 16px;"><div class="x78zum5 xdt5ytf xz62fqu x16ldp7u" style="display: flex; flex-direction: column; font-family: inherit; margin-bottom: -5px; margin-top: -5px;"><div class="xu06os2 x1ok221b" style="font-family: inherit; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-top: 5px;"><span class="x193iq5w xeuugli x13faqbe x1vvkbs xlh3980 xvmahel x1n0sxbx x1lliihq x1s928wv xhkezso x1gmr53x x1cpjm7i x1fgarty x1943h6x x4zkp8e x3x7a5m x6prxxf xvq8zen xo1l8bm xzsf02u x1yc453h" dir="auto" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; color: var(--primary-text); display: block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 0.9375rem; line-height: 1.3333; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; word-break: break-word;"><div class="xdj266r x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs x126k92a" style="font-family: inherit; margin: 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">NSV!! I can now wear this black bangle!! 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font-family: inherit; margin-left: -100px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="x1e558r4" style="font-family: inherit; padding-left: 4px;">Kim Siberski, Annmarie Entner and 31 others</span></span></span><div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span class="x1e558r4" style="font-family: inherit; padding-left: 4px;"><br /></span></span></div></div></span></div></div><div class="x9f619 x1n2onr6 x1ja2u2z x78zum5 x2lah0s x1qughib x1qjc9v5 xozqiw3 x1q0g3np xykv574 xbmpl8g x4cne27 xifccgj" style="align-items: stretch; background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #65676b; display: flex; flex-flow: row; flex-shrink: 0; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; justify-content: space-between; margin: -6px; position: relative; z-index: 0;"></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-70265880063987589552023-06-02T12:15:00.002-07:002023-08-31T12:15:34.816-07:00<div class="xdj266r x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I had an amazing moment of clarity the other day that I wanted to share.</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Now - I will tell you all that I've been a member of NoBS for four years. I've worked through a bunch of layers to get to this mental place.. but I'm hoping, maybe, I can help someone else get there faster.</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">99% of the time (anymore) - the thought that brings up urges is "I want that" or something similar. Yesterday I had that moment, felt the urge (for some of the bourbon sitting on the counter), heard <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>the voice and I paused and asked.. "Why?" Now, here's the thing. My lizard brain... the one that was sending up the urge couldn't tell me "Why" in words that I could understand but I could feel in my body what it would feel like to have that drink, the untightening of my chest, the relaxation of my limbs, warmth at my heart... the followed by the urge again.</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Then the words, repeated over and over again by Corinne came to me. "A feeling is just a vibration in your body" And I realized.. What my urge brain was saying was "We want to feel this way..." I still can't name the exact emotional feeling, but I certainly understood what it felt like physically. I also realized, if my urge is asking to feel a certain way... to cause a certain vibration in my body... Why... I know how to feel a feeling on purpose! We've practiced that in NOBS before! So hey brain... let's feel that way now.. but without an off plan drink!</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">And I did... and it WORKED!!!! <span class="x3nfvp2 x1j61x8r x1fcty0u xdj266r xhhsvwb xat24cr xgzva0m xxymvpz xlup9mm x1kky2od" style="display: inline-flex; font-family: inherit; height: 16px; margin: 0px 1px; vertical-align: middle; width: 16px;"><img alt="🤯" height="16" referrerpolicy="origin-when-cross-origin" src="https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/images/emoji.php/v9/t5/1/16/1f92f.png" style="border: 0px;" width="16" /></span></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-68197125326774449262023-03-28T11:49:00.004-07:002023-03-28T11:49:27.070-07:00How much structure is too much?<p>I'm feeling fired up and motivated. Focused on do goals, positive power thoughts and the benefits of weight loss. As far as scale results... well still waiting on those but I'm willing to keep experimenting. Of course when feeling motivated and driven the urge to make a detailed plan with calories and macros and and and all those things is strong but I'm working on creating a lifestyle that can be maintained when I'm not running on this kind of high. I need something that works in winter and not just in spring. There are parts of 'intuitive eating' that I don't like ... Eating when hungry and stopping when at enough is great and I feel like that's how I would like to live my life in maintenance... but in weightloss it feels like that approach makes it hard to be a scientist. I don't like the constant second guessing myself... and it's not like I can wake up tomorrow and go.. oh yeah.. yesterday's food was at weightloss levels cause look, the scale went down. I don't know.. maybe if I was better at using a habit tracker I would have the data I needed to be truly scientific about my results...</p><p>There is one thing on food quality I want to work on - that is getting in more protein. I know it's good for me. I feel good when I'm prioritizing it in my diet and it's good for metabolism. again the urge to measure my protein intake so that I can better judge my success is strong. I think in this case... I need to do what's best for me and if I do (or do not) measure to like my reasons.</p><p>Another goal over the next few days is to figure out how to move more throughout the day. I work a VERY sedentary job and it is really easy for me to to sit for eight plus hours in front of the computer -- then go downstairs and spend another three four hours in front of the TV. I want to build a bit more movement into my day or at the very least STAND UP now and than. So, looking for strategies there.</p><p>in the good column (and I promised myself to celebrate more of my wins) My sleep has been really really good lately and water on point. So YAY!</p><p>one last thing - I really want to call out how helpful chatgtp has been for me. As someone who is easily distracted I can often lose track of what I'm going to the internet for to research. So I'll spend way too long going to 10 different sites that end up saying the same exact thing. what starts as a question in my head that could have been answered in five minutes will sometimes cost me two hours in lost time...</p><p>question of the day: What needs to change so that I look forward to doing what needs to be done?</p><p>Answer: I need to change my thinking around those things that need to be done. I need to think of them positively, and if not positively at least not negatively.</p><p>Getting specific here... What needs to be done? </p><p>Drink Water, Sleep 7+ hours a day, Make a Daily Plan, Follow my Plan, Only eat when hungry and stop when satisfied not full. additional things that I think are important are: lift weights and cardio</p><p>And from my coach/training chatbot: </p><p>It's great that you have identified specific things that you want to work on to improve your health and well-being. Here are some tips for changing your thinking around these tasks:</p><p><br /></p><p>Focus on the benefits: Rather than thinking of these tasks as burdensome or annoying, try to focus on the benefits they bring to your life. For example, drinking water can help keep you hydrated and improve your skin, while getting enough sleep can improve your mood and cognitive function.</p><p><br /></p><p>Use positive language: When you talk or think about these tasks, use positive language instead of negative. For example, instead of thinking "I have to drink water," try thinking "I get to stay hydrated and healthy by drinking water." This can help shift your mindset and make these tasks feel less like a chore.</p><p><br /></p><p>Celebrate your successes: When you do follow through on your plan, give yourself credit for it. Celebrate your successes, no matter how small they may seem. This can help reinforce positive thinking and motivate you to continue making progress.</p><p><br /></p><p>Be kind to yourself: Changing habits can be difficult, and it's important to be kind to yourself throughout the process. If you slip up or don't follow through on your plan, don't beat yourself up about it. Instead, acknowledge what happened and refocus on your goals.</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-41727816793698590592023-03-27T16:35:00.004-07:002023-03-27T16:35:34.025-07:00Constant? <p> Today my page from https://primalpotential.com/ (100 questions that will change your life) asked me "<span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">Where could I be in ninety days of consistent action?"</span></p><p>I had the following response</p><p>90 days of consistent action would (I believe) put me back to where I was at the start of the pandemic. I would have 90 days of practice, 90 days of plans, 90 days of mindfulness that would build my toolbox out so that I can continue my weight loss journey through to the end. It would give me the confidence to continue 'figuring it out' And see me to a point where my body starts to really feel different. I'll be about 25% down from my original weight and that is enough that my brain actually starts to notice that weight loss has happened.</p><p><br /></p><p>then I asked ChatGTP what it thought - many of it's thought echoed my own :D but I'm going to copy them down here to 1) embed them further into my brain and 2) have them in a place I can refer to them quickly.</p><p>With constant action over the the next 90 days, I could make significant progress towards my health and fitness goals. I would experience:</p><p>1. Increased energy and vitality: Eating nutritious foods and engaging in regular exercise can help boost my energy levels and improve my overall sense of well-being.</p><p>2. Improved my physical fitness: With consistent exercise, I would see improvements in my strength, endurance, flexibility, and other markers of physical fitness.</p><p>3. Weight loss: 90 days of healthy eating and regular exercise would lead to significant changes in my body composition.</p><p>4. Better Sleep: A healthy lifestyle can improve the quality of my sleep, leaving me feeling more rested and rejuvenated each morning.</p><p>5. Increased self-confidence: As I make progress towards my goals and develop new habits, I will experience a boost in self-confidence and self-esteem.</p><p>Yeah - all that is pretty much what I said but saying the same thing in two different ways really seems to help all the parts of my brain get on the same page.</p><p>So - here's another list of what I can expect.</p><p>1. Physical changes: I will notice improvements in my overall health, including weightloss, increased muscle tone, improved digestion and better sleep.</p><p>2. Mental changes: I will feel more focused, motivated and energized. I will have a reduction in stress, anxiety and depression.</p><p>3. Behavioral changes: I will develop new habits and routines that that support my goals, such as daily exercise, healthy meal planning and regular self-care practices.</p><p>4. Social Changes: I will experience positive changes in my relationships with others, as I become more confident and self-assured.</p><p>5. Financial changes: I will save money by reducing expenses related to unhealthy habits, such as junk food and alcohol.</p><p>Overall, after ninety days of consistent action, I will feel more empowered, confident, and in control of my life. I will feel a sense of accomplishment and pride in myself for making positive changes towards my goals. </p><p>----</p><p>I wake up feeling more energized and motivated than ever before. As I look in the mirror, I notice my body has become more toned and defined. My clothes fit better and I feel more confident in my appearance. I no longer have to worry about feeling out of breath when walking up stairs or doing everyday activities. I am proud of the healthy choices I have been making and feel a sense of accomplishment each day. My relationships have improved as I have more energy to spend quality time with loved ones. I feel more focused at work and have a greater sense of clarity and purpose in my daily life. I feel happier, healthier and ore fulfilled than ever before.</p><p>Fulfilled --- Oooo I like that word! </p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-15590475084263158672023-03-25T09:05:00.003-07:002023-03-25T09:05:37.352-07:00<p> I stepped back into action yesterday... as they say in NOBS BIG ASS ACTION</p><p>I made a plan and I made up my mind to work on sticking to it - as well as honoring my hunger signals. </p><p>I had all the 'good thoughts' I was going to use lined up - I had a power thought for the day I was well rested and had a plan for water. I was ready...</p><p>Last night while starting to fall asleep I started to think about my day. I had this overall feeling of... let down, frustration, being 'on edge'. And it had been with me all day. My primary thoughts were along the line of 'today was hard - I felt 'off' all day. I'm happier when I'm not trying. Losing weight isn't worth it.</p><p>Primary feeling - defeated. I fell asleep feeling defeated</p><p>Today I'm trying to work through all that. I know these are exactly the feeling that have had me struggling for YEARS now. This is my next major milestone in my jorney.</p><p>So, what actually WAS uncomfortable? </p><p>1) eating slowly and mindfully at breakfast. It felt like when I let the dogs outside and I have to watch to make sure the cat doesn't try to follow them. Nothing BAD is happening at that moment, but I'm watching to make sure it doesn't. I think the main reason is uncomfortable is because eating mindlessly is a habit. So, slowing it down and THINKING about something that's automatic feels weird. It's like when you notice your breathing and you try to breath normal using your 'thinking' brain instead of your 'automatic' brain. There's nothing actually going wrong -- but somehow it feels like it is. </p><p>So, I've noticed - I've normalized what was going on in that moment. Next best? Can I just be uncomfortable for that 5-6 minutes out of the day while I process a meal and eating slower becomes the forefront habit? - Yeah, that sounds doable (and remind myself during the process that nothing is going wrong!)</p><p>2) Urges after breakfast. I started thinking about food - not specific food but any food. I told my brain to be quiet. That I had eaten and there was no reason for food right then. It was uncomfortable for a moment or two but went away... until.. about 15 minute later I realized I was actually hungry. I ate the few bites left of my breakfast and all the urges went away... So, it was only uncomfortable because I'm still learning to judge my true hunger and enough signals. I know this is an area I need work - and it's perfectly normal to work through this with some trial and error.</p><p>3) Dinner time - This was a double whammy. first, I waited too long to start dinner. I had planned something that required some work and I was already hungry. BUT I wanted to wait for dinner - it was going to be so good! AND I do think I have a habit of snacking (nibbling) while cooking. So, while I was cooking dinner it was urge city! A few times I gave in too - nibbled on some spam left out from breakfast and then I beat on myself a little - "You shouldn't have done that! You'll ruin dinner!" </p><p>So, yeah it's normal to want food when you are hungry. It's normal to EAT food when you are hungry. Maybe better planned stacks and better food timing helps here? but it was never an emergency.</p><p>So, yes... I'm going to continue this work. I'm going to keep listening and talking to that part of me that losing weight scares - the part of me that doesn't trust the other part of me to take care of us. Trust will happen it will just take time and I'm going to keep reminding myself that everything is ok and it's going to continue to be ok. </p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8201265973909476226.post-60601787169114964582023-03-06T12:15:00.002-08:002023-08-31T12:15:59.771-07:00<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: inherit; font-size: 15px; white-space-collapse: preserve;">Was listening to a MJ call over the weekend and she told a caller who had been 'stalled' for quite some time that 'you are only 2 bites away from weight loss'. That has been rattling around in my head for a few days. I find I want to bounce from eating how I am now to only eating 1/2 my meals and planning only 'best' foods and than back to doing nothing at all. I'm not yoyoing in 20 pound swings like before NoBS but I'm not losing weight either. </span></p><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So, today while I was on <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>the treadmill I started thinking about eating less. As I said, my process before was to either 'cook less' and/or 'eat half'. I knew I didn't want to take away one of my eggs in my standard breakfast because I had done that before and that wasn't enough and left me hungry... but I started to wonder. What if I actually tried leaving bites behind? ... My logical brain started to argue with me and said.. wellllll how must IS two bites? So I invented a new game that I tried with breakfast and it worked! even better than I expected!</div></div><div class="x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a" style="background-color: white; color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, "system-ui", ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space-collapse: preserve;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">Instead of 'bite behind' I 'skip bites' Twice while eating breakfast I would pick up a bite of food and than 'skip' putting it into my mouth -- I would set it to one side of my plate instead (I might change this to a small side plate or bowl.. we'll see). This let me leave those bites behind, but ALSO made me much much more mindful while I was eating. For 'set meals' like my eggs and or my sandwich that I've had over and over again it cuts out all the drama of 'should I stop now?' 'how about now?' AND some part of my brain thinks I ate all of my food.... cause I actually picked up my fork the 'normal' amount of times. It was weirdly satisfying. Can't wait to try it again for dinner and lunch!</div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0