So, as you might have guessed, I have a body bugg. It's a lot of fun for a gadget geek like me. Even better, it's the SP version that displays stats on my iphone -- Love it!
BTW - my nike+ now works with my iphone too!
I started tracking my burn closely yesterday and really hitting the goal of 3000 - I got bloody close - 2916 (from midnight to midnight). And my intake: 1960 Oh - and the 'official' starting weight 222.7 (down 3 pounds from yesterday)
The quality of the food has been so/so. But, it's not really where I'm focusing right now. I'm going for 'better' not perfect. My goal is to get to 90% of what Brooke Castillio calls "Fuel Eating" (as apposed to "Joy Eating"). But, right now I think I'm closer to 60-70% and over the next few weeks I expect to get better. I'm no longer trying to be perfect.
On the exercise front: I did a killer leg workout yesterday morning, and strapped my bike on the trainer for 45 minutes last night. Today, I did a chest workout this morning and then strapped on my trainers and did a 2 mile run tonight. Of course my strength is down, and I'm only averaging 13.3 min/mile but I'm looking forward to all that getting better with time.
And now for something boring :D
100 days of weight loss day 1 - I used to be that way, but now I'm different!
I used to get overconfident after a while, stop tracking my eating closely and eventually fall off completely and gain weight back - now I realize that this is for life and I can't make my plan one of deprivation - it's got to be something that I can live with!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
The Action Plan (cliff notes version)
Our real problem is not our strength today; it is rather the vital necessity of action today to ensure our strength tomorrow. ~Calvin Coolidge
Tomorrow I will:
Burn 3000 calories (according to my body bugg)
Eat 2000 calories (creating a 1000 calorie deficite)
Lift weight sin the morning
Ride my bike in the evening
-will detail more tomorrow
Tomorrow I will:
Burn 3000 calories (according to my body bugg)
Eat 2000 calories (creating a 1000 calorie deficite)
Lift weight sin the morning
Ride my bike in the evening
-will detail more tomorrow
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Hmm...
I've discovered something interesting.
I miss this blog. I missed the history, the struggles, the successes.
I'm trying a new, kinder gentler, more 'brain focus' approach lately. A great deal of it involves journaling so I'm opening up this blog again to record my thoughts. We'll see how it goes.
Here's the first question:
To me having a fresh start means I don't forget where I come from, but I don't let it define me either.
Why is this journey important to me?
Because I feel like I'm at the edge of very big positive change in my life - at all levels. This scares and excites me at the same time. I want to take every opportunity to live my life to the fullest, and learn everything there is to learn from every experience.
What is my number one goal in the next 45 days during Phase I of the Make Today
Matter journey?
To complete it. I've starting so many things and didn't finish. I want to finish!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
May the Forth be with you
So... Yeah...
I know it's been a while. Honestly, I kind of had a 'break down'. If I can every figure out what causes these, why my motivation, fire and focus goes out the window... I'll have this process beat.
So, I'm up to my 'before the new year' weight - but, I've been on a plan and 'on plan' since Monday. Baby steps.
Right now I'm just focusing on the food. Getting back into the routine of making a plan and sticking to it. I'm doing what I can to remove temptations. One of my biggest temptations is when I go into 'quick mart' stores. All that candy and pastry... I almost always walk out with something. It's kind of like an alcoholic walking into a bar every day with a plan to only order water. Some people can do it, I suppose, but it's silly to put yourself in the snake pit if you don't have to.
One of the main reasons I go into those places is to grab myself diet soda. So... I've been looking for ways to avoid that. I've got a Sodastream
at home and I start by day with a full liter of soda there. Then at work I've got some Crystal Light Energy 
and MIO Water Enhancer
so I can fill my water bottle up and put a little caffeine and/or flavor in it. It's worked out well so far.
To manage 'snack attacks' I bought a bunch of 100 Calorie Snack Packs
of nuts. That way I can have some nuts - but there's no question about when it's time to stop!
The next thing I want to deal with was 'fast food'. It became very obvious to me yesterday that another 'excuse' for going off the rails is not wanting to cook. There are a lot of fast food places nearby (and of course, the ever present quick marts) that I don't need to be visiting every time I want something 'fast'. So, I think I'm going to break down and buy myself a microwave. I have a bunch of quick-to-make food at home (oatmeal, soup etc) but it's a pain in the butt to use if you don't have a microwave. It's time to give up some of my precious counter space, spend the $50 and get an oven!
Lastly, I need to figure out how to do all of this and not drown in feelings of being deprived. That ugly "M" word (moderation) is such an elusive beast, especially when there's some addictive tendencies going on. I actually did manage to do moderation (of a sort) for a brief period of my life. But, I was living on my own, doing what I wanted to do without many worries. I wasn't thinking about food or excise at all! I ate what I wanted, when I wanted it. I moved a little each day without thinking about it, and I was healthy and happy. No, I wasn't at my 'goal weight', but I was in a mind space where I probably would have gotten there eventually. I need to figure out how to get back there. And not just for my physical health. Mentally I need to get back to that space too. The world was my oyster back then. I miss that person - my husband does too. (that's when we met)
To that end, I gave a little thought to tomorrow nights "Cinco de Mayo" celebration. I love hanging with friends, and letting my hair down once in a while. I don't want to throw my goals completely out of whack, but I don't want to feel like I 'missed' the party either. So I did a little shopping and picked up some Skinny Margarita Mix
. Just a little compromise that I think will go a long way.
Anywho - I'm trying not to get too far ahead of myself. Take one step at a time, one day at a time.
My goal right now is to make it through a week of on plan eating and then evaluate if I'm ready to start thinking about structured workouts again. Right now, just the thought of getting up at 5:00AM and hitting the gym, or lacing up some running shoes makes me exhausted. My fitness goals should make me feel energized, not drain me. So, until they do... it's accidental exercise for me.
I know it's been a while. Honestly, I kind of had a 'break down'. If I can every figure out what causes these, why my motivation, fire and focus goes out the window... I'll have this process beat.
So, I'm up to my 'before the new year' weight - but, I've been on a plan and 'on plan' since Monday. Baby steps.
Right now I'm just focusing on the food. Getting back into the routine of making a plan and sticking to it. I'm doing what I can to remove temptations. One of my biggest temptations is when I go into 'quick mart' stores. All that candy and pastry... I almost always walk out with something. It's kind of like an alcoholic walking into a bar every day with a plan to only order water. Some people can do it, I suppose, but it's silly to put yourself in the snake pit if you don't have to.
One of the main reasons I go into those places is to grab myself diet soda. So... I've been looking for ways to avoid that. I've got a Sodastream
at home and I start by day with a full liter of soda there. Then at work I've got some Crystal Light Energy and MIO Water Enhancer so I can fill my water bottle up and put a little caffeine and/or flavor in it. It's worked out well so far.To manage 'snack attacks' I bought a bunch of 100 Calorie Snack Packs
of nuts. That way I can have some nuts - but there's no question about when it's time to stop!The next thing I want to deal with was 'fast food'. It became very obvious to me yesterday that another 'excuse' for going off the rails is not wanting to cook. There are a lot of fast food places nearby (and of course, the ever present quick marts) that I don't need to be visiting every time I want something 'fast'. So, I think I'm going to break down and buy myself a microwave. I have a bunch of quick-to-make food at home (oatmeal, soup etc) but it's a pain in the butt to use if you don't have a microwave. It's time to give up some of my precious counter space, spend the $50 and get an oven!
Lastly, I need to figure out how to do all of this and not drown in feelings of being deprived. That ugly "M" word (moderation) is such an elusive beast, especially when there's some addictive tendencies going on. I actually did manage to do moderation (of a sort) for a brief period of my life. But, I was living on my own, doing what I wanted to do without many worries. I wasn't thinking about food or excise at all! I ate what I wanted, when I wanted it. I moved a little each day without thinking about it, and I was healthy and happy. No, I wasn't at my 'goal weight', but I was in a mind space where I probably would have gotten there eventually. I need to figure out how to get back there. And not just for my physical health. Mentally I need to get back to that space too. The world was my oyster back then. I miss that person - my husband does too. (that's when we met)
To that end, I gave a little thought to tomorrow nights "Cinco de Mayo" celebration. I love hanging with friends, and letting my hair down once in a while. I don't want to throw my goals completely out of whack, but I don't want to feel like I 'missed' the party either. So I did a little shopping and picked up some Skinny Margarita Mix
. Just a little compromise that I think will go a long way.Anywho - I'm trying not to get too far ahead of myself. Take one step at a time, one day at a time.
My goal right now is to make it through a week of on plan eating and then evaluate if I'm ready to start thinking about structured workouts again. Right now, just the thought of getting up at 5:00AM and hitting the gym, or lacing up some running shoes makes me exhausted. My fitness goals should make me feel energized, not drain me. So, until they do... it's accidental exercise for me.
Monday, March 14, 2011
LMJS Couples Relay
Woke up to a cold cold cold day, but at least it wasn't raining. In fact the sun was out and it was beautiful. Pre-race was easy, I got our numbers, we got our swag bag and basically just waited for the race to start. There were quite a few sponsors at the race and they were giving away a lot of free stuff, so that was nice.
We lined up right on time and after a really brief explanation of the race route (that boiled down to "Keep the lake on your right" we were off.
I started as I usually do - in the back. I know I'm slow and rather then frustrate myself I just start at the back and go at my pace -- and that's what I did, went at my own pace - even though it was frustrating to be passed and watch everyone pull away from me.
Of course, going at my pace has it's advantages because eventually I started catching up to people and passing them.
And so I went
And so I started to get tired. My lack of training caught up to me and I started to play the, just to the next sign, make it around that corner, just to the next intersection game. I didn't have my watch with me so I didn't know how many miles I had gone, but I could look across the lake and see the finish line and that was giving me hope, keeping me going.
Then I turned a corner and realized that there was a major loop ahead of me, and I wasn't as close to the end of the race as I thought I was -- suddenly, I was crushed, I couldn't run another step. So I switched to a walk/run, made it around the loop and then ran the last leg and tagged my husband.
The best part of the race was coming down the finish line, and seeing my husband, standing there smiling and waiting for me to tag him. He gave me a big kiss and he was off to run his race.
I got some water and some food and waited for my husband to come him. He did (in 31 minutes) and as a team we did a 6K in 1:11:44.49 - we came in 148 out of 152.
We weren't last, and I wasn't the slowest person out there - I'm good with that.
A few things I learned from this race:
1 - I run better with a watch. It helps me to keep track of how much I have left to go and how much I need to leave in the tank.
2 - Training is important (ok - I knew this already) I figured out later that the place where I 'died' was at about the 2.5 mile mark, and that was about where I had gotten to in my training.
ah well, live and learn and on to the next race.
As for this one - I did 5 K in 40:21 for a 12:36 Pace (and that was with some walking) I'm pretty proud of that!
We lined up right on time and after a really brief explanation of the race route (that boiled down to "Keep the lake on your right" we were off.
I started as I usually do - in the back. I know I'm slow and rather then frustrate myself I just start at the back and go at my pace -- and that's what I did, went at my own pace - even though it was frustrating to be passed and watch everyone pull away from me.
Of course, going at my pace has it's advantages because eventually I started catching up to people and passing them.
And so I went
And so I started to get tired. My lack of training caught up to me and I started to play the, just to the next sign, make it around that corner, just to the next intersection game. I didn't have my watch with me so I didn't know how many miles I had gone, but I could look across the lake and see the finish line and that was giving me hope, keeping me going.
Then I turned a corner and realized that there was a major loop ahead of me, and I wasn't as close to the end of the race as I thought I was -- suddenly, I was crushed, I couldn't run another step. So I switched to a walk/run, made it around the loop and then ran the last leg and tagged my husband.
The best part of the race was coming down the finish line, and seeing my husband, standing there smiling and waiting for me to tag him. He gave me a big kiss and he was off to run his race.
I got some water and some food and waited for my husband to come him. He did (in 31 minutes) and as a team we did a 6K in 1:11:44.49 - we came in 148 out of 152.
We weren't last, and I wasn't the slowest person out there - I'm good with that.
A few things I learned from this race:
1 - I run better with a watch. It helps me to keep track of how much I have left to go and how much I need to leave in the tank.
2 - Training is important (ok - I knew this already) I figured out later that the place where I 'died' was at about the 2.5 mile mark, and that was about where I had gotten to in my training.
ah well, live and learn and on to the next race.
As for this one - I did 5 K in 40:21 for a 12:36 Pace (and that was with some walking) I'm pretty proud of that!
I still don't have my race report done -- sorry.
I've had some other crap going on - trying to get my head on straight - I go through this now and then and I try not to drag too much of it out on my blog because, well people would get tired of it, I'm sure.
But, here's where I'm at right now.
If you didn't know already, I consider myself about 80 lbs overweight.
I've battled weight pretty much my entire adult life, and, at 42 I'm tired of it. I told myself at the beginning of this year, that it was the last year. I would make one last push to hit my goal weight and if I couldn't do it in 2011, I would never go on another 'diet' again.
So, I did what any computer geek does, I made a spread sheet - charted what my weight loss would look like to reach that goal and went to it. Only, I fell behind. I had some bad days, I hit a plateau and, started to do things to try to 'make up'. I started being stupid. I started trying to restrict my eating, going on a 'diet'. Of course, the more I restricted, the bigger my slips got and soon I was back on horrible roller coaster of success and failure where I felt like crap, even when I was being 'good'.
Instead of this journey being a hike over mountains and through valley's as it should be, I had tried to turn it into a sprint...
There really isn't a 'good' way to sprint through a 80 lb weight loss...
And so, I'm done. I'm done trying to control what I can't control - the scale. And I'm back to controlling what I can - the quality of food that goes into my pie hole. Luckily, I don't have any health issues to worry about (yet) so there's no urgency from that end. But I do know I need to get my head on right about food. I need to spend less time worrying about what the scale says and more time worrying about how I feel. I need to get my head on straight and figure out how to have a healthy relationship with food.
So -- that's where I'm at.
Luckily, I happen to believe that Paleo eating is healthy. And I know from experience that I feel good (great even) when I'm following a Paleo/Primal lifestyle. So, it's back to unweighed, unmeasured paleo for me.
And the scale can kiss my *SS!
I've had some other crap going on - trying to get my head on straight - I go through this now and then and I try not to drag too much of it out on my blog because, well people would get tired of it, I'm sure.
But, here's where I'm at right now.
If you didn't know already, I consider myself about 80 lbs overweight.
I've battled weight pretty much my entire adult life, and, at 42 I'm tired of it. I told myself at the beginning of this year, that it was the last year. I would make one last push to hit my goal weight and if I couldn't do it in 2011, I would never go on another 'diet' again.
So, I did what any computer geek does, I made a spread sheet - charted what my weight loss would look like to reach that goal and went to it. Only, I fell behind. I had some bad days, I hit a plateau and, started to do things to try to 'make up'. I started being stupid. I started trying to restrict my eating, going on a 'diet'. Of course, the more I restricted, the bigger my slips got and soon I was back on horrible roller coaster of success and failure where I felt like crap, even when I was being 'good'.
Instead of this journey being a hike over mountains and through valley's as it should be, I had tried to turn it into a sprint...
There really isn't a 'good' way to sprint through a 80 lb weight loss...
And so, I'm done. I'm done trying to control what I can't control - the scale. And I'm back to controlling what I can - the quality of food that goes into my pie hole. Luckily, I don't have any health issues to worry about (yet) so there's no urgency from that end. But I do know I need to get my head on right about food. I need to spend less time worrying about what the scale says and more time worrying about how I feel. I need to get my head on straight and figure out how to have a healthy relationship with food.
So -- that's where I'm at.
Luckily, I happen to believe that Paleo eating is healthy. And I know from experience that I feel good (great even) when I'm following a Paleo/Primal lifestyle. So, it's back to unweighed, unmeasured paleo for me.
And the scale can kiss my *SS!
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