Dude at the gym totally pissed me off! He and his SO were hanging on the leg press talking when I started to do my squats. They were still on it - now arguing when I finished. I waited another minute and finally just walked up to them and asked how many sets they had left... The guy says he doesn't have any, but SHE might, he's not sure. (she never would answer me)

 He starts to walk away but then turns around and tells me, "There's a machine over there that does pretty much the same thing - it's more stable and easier for you. You should use that, it's easier."

Just because I'm fat doesn't mean I'm out of shape :| and your SO may be skinny but she's using just the sled with no weight (l lift 300+ lbs on it) so why don't you tell her to go use the other machine?! 

Now on to happier things - I'm ahead of goals in weight right now. (whoot!!) It's thursday which is normally when I start to hit the Danger zone for me so I'll need to keep my safe word top of mind (Hawaii) (I've been 'good' three whole days after all)

 Wait a minute! - I just had an inspiration. Words matter - and thoughts like "I've been good..." may not be the best thought for me. Because I'm a 'Rebel'.

Gretchen Ruben in her book "Better Than Before" talks about the four tendencies:

Upholders: respond readily to both outer expectations and inner expectations
Questioners: question all expectations, and will meet an expectation only if they believe it's justified
Obligers: respond readily to out expectations but struggle to meet inner expectations
Rebels (me): resist all expectation, outer and inner alike

 So, when I start using words like "I've been good" my rebel personality puts on it's leather jacket, black eyeliner, lights a cigarette and pushes the 'good' me into the bathroom and gives it a swirly...Then eats 10 doughnuts just to prove that no diet is the boss of me, I can do what I want!!

Hawaii!! I’ve kept the word top of mind constantly.

While I’ve had Time boxed goals like this before I’ve never thought to encapsulate that goal into a single word that I repeat over and over. At the moment, it’s working. I've managed to focus on a time/goal so fully that I made major changes before - for my wedding, so knew it could work for me by hadn’t found a way for that to happen yet. Let’s hope this is the breakthrough I needed.

I'm green on all goals today!

BTW - reset my goals as of Monday - may make this a monthly process.  In doing so I have new daily/weekly goals to reach my (max) goal of 175 for Hawaii.  As of today (day two) on on track to do that! heh :D

Well I've found a new trick... With plans of going to HI in September now in full swing, Whenever I am tempted with off plan food or to skip a workout I just think the word "Hawaii".  Currently, that's enough to push the feast beast back into it's cage.  80 lbs by Hawaii! Let's do this!

I'm behind... I'm so so behind on all my goals (6 pounds behind to be exact)! BUT I'm not giving up.  I'm staying focused and I have new motivation.  We're going to HI this year!!  A friend is turning 40 and invited all her friends to stay in HI to celebrate.  We're going in Sept so there's plenty of time to lose some weight and get in shape before hanging out on warm beaches and enjoying sunshine (and rain).  I should be able to fairly easily get below the weight I was last time I was in HI (245).  that's only thirty pounds in 7 months... Best deal would be to drop 70 lbs before then!  But to put us back in the "don't go crazy" department... 215 is my 'modest goal'.  anything better than that will be gravy.

To that end - I hit the gym this am and did a shoulder and bi workout.  Only issue there is that my right shoulder feels impinged and I'm in a lot of pain.  So, I'm making an appointment at my favorite massage company to see if I can get this worked out and continue to workout.

Still trying to figure out the cardio portion of my routine... maybe evenings?  though not getting home until 7:30 or 8:00 PM at night makes that difficult.

A new month, a new chance to lose weight! I’m going to do it this month!

Got nine hours of sleep last night! Feeling much much better! I worked from home for almost two years and got really used to sleeping ‘til 8 or 9AM. Now, because of my new job I have to leave the house at 6:40 and if I want to workout I have to get up at 5! This is a huge change for me! Luckily I get to work from home on Thursday’s so I can sleep in a little and catch up which is exactly what I did. Still going to the gym today. Leg day whoop!