Story time... I came into the tribe hating myself. Seriously...it was ugly! After a few months I figured out that wasn’t how I wanted to LIVE, and I quit doing that. Suddenly, I found I was struggling. I didn’t have a hard why anymore... so I sat down and wrote the following...

The funny thing is, I still don’t have what many would think of as a hard why, and yet I’m still here, taking action every day, 15 (almost 20) pounds lighter then I was when I wrote this. Still asking myself questions and looking for my own answers... and doing my best to love myself every step of the way.

PS - some of my ‘Pros’ to not losing weight are thought errors.... I realize this!

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7Karen Teetsel Jessop, Christine Coulter Davis and 5 others

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 Wow - sometimes new thoughts CAN be automatic.

C: saw an off plan food

Feast Beast: ooo we want that

T: yeah, that sounds good. Too bad we didn’t think to put it on the plan today... we’ll have to put that in tomorrow.

FB: umm yeah too bad...

F: mildly wistful for but dismissive of the food

Then I stopped and thought. Wait...did that just happen!? I just dismissed an urge on autopilot!!

F: strong, determined, proud, validated

I’ve been practicing that thought for a while now (like since April...). And having it pop into my head like that was so amazing!!

I mean - it’s almost like this stuff works!

 Dear newbies... in case you didn’t know it already... weight loss isn’t linear. Nor does it always reflect your level of effort. And it certainly doesn’t indicate how ‘good or bad’ you’ve been. In truth the food you eat doesn’t determine if your good or bad... but that’s a post for another day.

This is just a reminder that weight loss doesn’t happen in a straight line. And what matters it that you keep focused on your goal, work on being consistent, and always be open to figuring it out. Two steps forward and one back is still a step forward. You’ll get there and learn some amazing things along the way while you’re at it.

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145Rosie Mercedes, Norma Frahn and 143 others

 This talk about realistic planning has really got me thinking... In my brain there have been two kinds of 'realistic'. There is realistic... as in all the things I love and want to eat and I would put on my plan if I had 'no rules' and there is 'Realistic for weight loss'. And those two plans looked NOTHING alike.

I started to wonder WHY they were so different and the answer came back that I could probably put a slice of cake or piece of toast on my plan and still lose some weight - but not at the rate I want...

So that started part two of this -- where I asked myself, so why do I set such aggressive weight loss goals? And the immediate answer came back, "Because I want it to be over with quickly...."

and that STOPPED me in my tracks..."You want WHAT to be over with quickly..."

"The dieting..."

Ohhhh crap! well something smells rotten here!

I haven't decided what next steps are for me here... just figured out that something will need to change and maybe THIS is the step I need to take to finally move into phase 3

I actually had a great week in Chicago -- then came home and blew my progress over the weekend. So 1 step forward .5 a step back.  But I'm still headed in the right direction. The focus on making weightloss easy while traveling has paid off - so now I can work on the other opportunity for success in my life - the weekends! So, this week every night I'm going to be spending some time writing about my intent to making weightloss easy this upcoming weekend.

My weight loss progress for the past four weeks... ((a minus is a gain))
9/30/2019    Week 25      -3.410/7/2019    Week 26      -1.110/14/2019    Week 27      -1.110/21/2019    Week 28       3.3


so - there is is room for focus for sure.

 I travel for work at least one week out of every month. I’ve been gradually leveling up each time I go in an effort to make weight loss easy while away from home. I negotiated with my company to not stay at the fancy pants boutique hotel and instead stay at the Hyatt house in a room with a full kitchen (which is cheaper amazingly enough) I plan like I do at home and shop at Whole Foods and tote groceries back to my room for the week. This is this week’s haul. Bacon and eggs for breakfast. A package of chicken to divide into three meals. Tonight I’ll wrap it in bacon and have it with Brussels sprouts, divided the rest into plaid baggies (which I bring with me) and I one dumped pesto which I’ll have other pesto zoodles and the other I dumped some garlic and squeezed in some lemon which I’ll probably have with any left over veggies from other nights. the other night I’m here I’m planning on eating at one of the fabulous local restaurants as an exception meal. I have olives, cheese and lunch meat for snacks and lunches are either meetings with food provided or a salad from Whole Foods.

I just wanted to remind people...it doesn’t have to be hard!

So, please! Add your travel tips!

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176Kim Siberski, Jennifer Mueller and 174 others

 I had an 'ah-ha' last night that I think is going to be VERY important for me moving forward.

I recently had a shift in my compelling reasons - Losing weight to 'be sexy' and 'love myself' lost meaning for me, cause I'm doing those things now - I don't need a number on a scale to do that.

Then at camp I realized that the new 'reason' I had come up with "To prove I can do hard things..." mean that weight loss had to be hard... (aren't our minds amazing!!??) and I don't want weight loss to be hard.

Last night I figured out that my remaining reasons "to be fit and healthy" were not sitting well with me. Not because they weren't good reasons but because I hadn't worked them all the way through. I had a definition of what 'fit and healthy' looked liked but I hadn't tied them very well to daily action (other then working out) that also tied into my weight loss goal.

To explain further - I knew that being healthy meant having great lab results (normal A1c, blood pressure, low cholesterol) And I knew that being at at a healthy body weight would help with all of that - but 'healthy' was something in the future something far off to be achieved... I hadn't defined what it meant to be healthy each and every day ((just like I've defined what it means to love myself each and every day)). It was an INCREDABLE shift in my thinking! Being healthy isn't something I'm striving for - it's something I'm LIVING for. It's not a goal for 'someday' it's an intention I can set every day...

so from now on - "I eat in such a way that promotes weight loss and good health because that's what it means to be healthy - today"