Well as you can see – the party went well and the dress went over with a bang :)

Ok course no picture of it came out as good as the one I had in my head, but I’m almost used to that happening at this point in my life.

I would like to point out in photo 1 in the post below that I think you can see my shoulder cap peeking out. It’s little glimpse like that that keep me going!

Saturday I spent the entire day getting ready for my party. Sunday, I spent the entire day recovering from my party. I’ve drank a lot throughout my lifetime, but I have NEVER had a hangover before. Sunday was my first! The only thing I can think to blame it on is the GALLONS of red wine I drank. It was the first time ever I had drunken more then 1 glass of red wine at a time. Believe me, it’s something I intend to avoid in the future. I’ll stick with my Long Island Ice Teas thank you very much.

In fact my tummy still feels ‘not so hot’ today. BUT I still got up at 4:00 this morning. We had another session with out trainer. It was a lot better then last Monday. Again it was ‘upper body’ day – chest, back and shoulders.

After our normal warm-up (crunches, hopping and step ups) we hit the weights. I was thrilled when he skipped the cable machine and said, “Let’s do bench press”. To make things a bit more difficult he put as swill ball at the end of the bench and made us put our feet up on it while we pressed. It was interesting to say the least.

Press (plus bar): 30 x 15 / 40 x 15 / 40 x 15

This we supper setted with

Seated rows: 75 x 15 / 80 x 15 / 75 x 15

The seated rows were REALLY slow, 5 count up and 5 count back. It was such a challenge!

Then we did shoulders two different ways, both using the cable machine.

Sanding on a rubber balance thing and then laying with hips on a swiss ball and legs wedged again the machine so the body was at a 45 degree angle.

We did 15 reps and 2 sets each (don’t know the weight because the trainer set it – I just knew it was HARD!) :)

And that was it.

Now – time to talk turkey here.

I’ve been looking over my blog for the past few months. All the times I’ve posted over and over again that THIS was it. THIS was the month/week/day that was going to be the start of something big. Then I go back to doing the same ol’ things in the same ol’ way and a month later I’m stuck in the same ol’ body.

So, how do I break this pattern? How do I say “This time it’s different” and mean it? I’m so sick of treading water.

I know that it’s the nutrition that’s killing me. The sick thing is that I have all the information I need to make work for me. But sometimes know and doing are leagues apart from each other.

So, today I’m not going to say that it’s the first day of the rest of my life. I’m not going to promise big changes in a month, or three months, or a year. What I AM going to do is make today a good day. What does that mean? It means actually KNOWING if I’ve had a good day or not. Not ‘guessing’. It means honoring my promise to myself TODAY. Tomorrow’s going to have to take care of itself.

So, my goal for today is to hit 2000 – 2300 calories near to 30/30/30 ratio.

Good or bad I’ll post my results tomorrow – I’ll expect you all to hold me to it.