Monday, March 14, 2016

Well, I was on a roll and then the holidays hit and the beginning of 2016 has been super stressful.  So, what do I do?  I eat, and binge and eat so more.

And I gain, and gain, and gain...  I'm at a weight I can't even fathom... 280! What The Fuck!!!

 I saw my arms in the mirror today and I nearly fell over!  They are huge!  I mean all of me is huge but some how I thought I still had nice looking arms and calves.  But no...

I have to do something!  I managed to make it a few hours into the day today 'on plan'  then binged on some chocolate... then did ok... then ate 6 Krispy Kreme doughnuts.

I feel completely helpless and hopeless and I'm not sure where to start or how to get a handle on this before it gets any worse.  300lbs is not that far away.  I can't let it get to that!

Why is it so hard to tell myself no?  Why can't I deal with stress like a 'normal' person - without having to eat an entire box of yellow zingers.  Why, why, why!?