Well, I was on a roll and then the holidays hit and the beginning of 2016 has been super stressful. So, what do I do? I eat, and binge and eat so more.
And I gain, and gain, and gain... I'm at a weight I can't even fathom... 280! What The Fuck!!!
I saw my arms in the mirror today and I nearly fell over! They are huge! I mean all of me is huge but some how I thought I still had nice looking arms and calves. But no...
I have to do something! I managed to make it a few hours into the day today 'on plan' then binged on some chocolate... then did ok... then ate 6 Krispy Kreme doughnuts.
I feel completely helpless and hopeless and I'm not sure where to start or how to get a handle on this before it gets any worse. 300lbs is not that far away. I can't let it get to that!
Why is it so hard to tell myself no? Why can't I deal with stress like a 'normal' person - without having to eat an entire box of yellow zingers. Why, why, why!?