As you may or may not know I've struggled a little with 'getting my head in the game' since I came back from my Honeymoon. Part of it has to do with the fact that I'm at 'that spot' - the one where I've stopped every other time I've lost weight. And... frankly I'm pretty comfortable at my weight. Dropping 40 lbs feels like such a difference it's hard to imagine I could make even MORE changes.
But Friday I went shopping for a dress for my company christmas party - and while it wasn't the tearfilled disaster that last year's dress shopping event was it was eye opening because for some reason - while under the harsh dressingroom lights I realized that although I've dropped 40 lbs, and I'm a size 10, and I'm the lightest weight I've been my entire adult life... I am still fat.
Now I don't mean that in a disparaging way... what I mean is I looked at myself and for some reason really SAW the potential that's waiting there. I've spent so much time recently - reveling in how far I've come. And yes, that's a good thing to do, BUT I wasn't spending enough time thinking about where I want to go, not in a postive sense. Well I have now and you know what? I'm EXCITED!
Hit the gym with new focus - I'm liking my planned meals again I'm looking forward to the new year and new goals and a whole new me. These next few months are going to ROCK!!
(Photos from the party to come soon)
Happy Holidays!
I know you are going to do well, and if you slip quite badly, you could use a radical approach to cure your slip-ups.
ReplyDeleteWhen you balls up, and don't eat properly, you would have to eat something gross, that's made of stuff you shouldn't eat.
So it could be something like a small piece of Chocolate, half a Pickle, and some grated Fatty Cheese, topped of with a bit of Maple Syrup, then you fry it until it's practically black, and needs scraping of the pan, and then eat it.
Like a very horrible, burned greasy hors douvres.
;-) ;-) ;-).
You make yourself do something like that a few times, you'll probably never stray from the path again.
Though you might need to occasionally keep some Peptobismols handy, just incase ;-).
GOOD LUCK. I know you can do anything you set your heart on. I'm always proud for you.
Matt
You HAVE come a long way, baby! But we all need to take a little break and then have that 'aha' moment when we realize there is more to come. You go girl! You are amazing and so inspiring!
ReplyDeleteMore amazing results copmming up I feel! Keep it up Girl!
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