Notes to Myself

 I've been really frustrated lately because I haven't had a lot of success with weight loss for the first 1/4th of the year.  I've been trying to remember what I was thinking, how I was feeling, and what I was doing those times that I was losing weight successfully.  Only, I keep looking back trying to find that info ... and I'm just NOT! 

I know it wasn't happening by MAGIC, but I can't seem to find any notes or any data to correlate what was going on at the time...

That stops today.  Time to get back to making a note of my choices so that if/when I have success, I know what I did to get there and can repeat it!  It's like the VERY BASIS of what I preach in my work life.  Why haven't I done this here?

What's going to follow is my capturing what I can of my current circumstances, what I'm thinking, what I'm feeling and what I'm DOING ... and any and all results I'm getting.  (the model for those who are familiar)

So, it's April 2nd :D 

My weight is 270.35 down .11 pounds for the Week/Month/Quarter (which started yesterday)

and down 25.40 pounds since my highest weight in Dec 2018.  135.35 pounds to go to goal.

My focus this Month: Mindful (eating), Move (at least 30 min a day), Motivate (myself throughout the day), Macros (30/30/30)

Specifically this week: 

Mindful

Only eating if hungry and stopping before FULL

Planning my food ahead of time in the Lose it App (aiming for about 1400 calories but being MINDFUL of my hunger signals over calorie counts)

Move

Lifting weights 5days - back on the MAX-OT train... doing week 1 of the program today.  Though I'm modifying it to fit into my home gym

2 days of 30 minutes of biking

2 days of 30 minutes of treadmill

1 day of 'play' doing whatever I feel like (oculus) for 30 minutes

However... there's an overall goals for each session to...

hit 6,000 steps

hit 1500 calories burned

that usually means I need to spend some extra time on the treadmill just walking

and then... 30 minutes of OUTDOOR walking at the end of the day if the weather allows it

Motivate

Blog here daily

every day, read my motivational cards

post my workouts online

Macros

I've been thinking about when my life felt really balanced and I was still losing weight.  I keep coming back to balanced macros... I call it 30/30/30 because it's easy to remember - I realize that it doesn't add up to 100%! but the goal is to keep the ratios of macros to around 30% each.  so days it might be 20 and some days it might be 40 and that's ok.  but what's important is to not keep turning down a piece of bread because I'm 'dieting' and also to not eat an entire bag of easter candy because 'now I've blown it, may as well keep going!"

this worked REALLY well yesterday.  I tend to run low carb overall because... I don't know.. I don't think sugar is all that healthy, I don't love the way most bread feels in my body (if I eat a lot of it) and it's just the way a typical day goes for me.  I feel healthy and energized when I prioritize protein in my diet.  So, at the end of the day yesterday I was feeling a bit hungry (a pre-requisite) and someone offered up a reese's peanut butter Egg.  I looked over my data for the day and sure enough, there was more than enough room in my life for a peanut butter egg! So, 30/30/30 allows me to focus on foods that feel really good in my body, while also allowing to enjoy 'indugences' without it triggering fuck it thoughts.

so, what else am I thinking and feeling right now?

here's some thoughts

I love myself enough to want to lose weight.  

Stopping sooner on one thing means I can eat more of EVERYTHING!

Hungry food is the best food.

The process I choose is less important than the thoughts I have about it...

My current thoughts about what I've chosen...

This is how I get to my goal.  How I get to the future me that I want.  Strong, Lean, fit, athletic.. but balanced.  Someone is energetic, healthy and FUN! 

I want my body to transform, but not my life! I like my life. 

And that's me, today