Well Hello

I'm not sure if anyone visits this blog anymore. Heck, I don't like to visit it myself, it's rather depressing!

The shear number of "ah-ha moments", "epiphany" and "On Fire" posts here only to find myself STILL not at my goal... well, it makes me wonder if I'm ever going to get there.

And yet, here I am. Still here. Still fighting the 'good fight'.

What's become obvious to me over the years is that my relationship with food is what many might call an 'addiction'. I 'use' food for many of the same reasons that others might use alcohol or drugs. That's one of the reasons that 'diets' for me, have to be all or nothing. There has to be a clear line of what is allowed and what isn't. Clear boundaries need to be in place.

But, on the other had, I need to learn to deal with the things that make me turn to food. Pain, Stress, desire for pleasure... all these things have me looking for food and eating too much of it.

So, what do I do now? I'm not really sure to be honest. Isn't the first step admitting you have a problem? I've done that, but then I've done that before too. What I haven't always done is acknowledge that I can't deal with this via 'normal' means. I need a clear, black and white line when it comes to food. And I need to observe it with a "No Choice" mentality.

That means I need to cage my feast beast and not give him the power to talk me into crossing that line. I need to address my addictive voice when it starts it's siren song. Address it and defeat it.

So far today, I haven't crossed the line, and I have no plans to cross it ever again. The feast beast will die, I will be free.

The plan? Well the plan is simple. Medifast with additional calories allowed as long as it's veggies fat and/or protein.

For exercise. I'm going back to the Met-RX weight lifting program, but 4 days a week. Plus I'm doing my triathlon training.

I'm also looking for more ways to enjoy life that aren't food related. I'm going to discover a life that isn't covered in chocolate sauce.

This morning I got up early and did a good leg/ab workout. Tonight I've got a 45 minute run planned.

Wednesday: RT = Chest and Biceps | Cardio = Brick Workout (Bike + Run)
Thursday: RT = Back and Traps | Cardio = Run
Friday: RT = Shoulders and Triceps
Saturday: Swim
Sunday: Swim & Brick

Took some time to recover this past week.

I did my markerset/TT run on Tuesday and my Markerset/TT on the trainer on Wednesday.  Thursday, I was having a really bad day, so I ended up just going for a walk with the dog.  Friday and Saturday I rested and recovered and then Sunday I joined up with Team Alameda to see what it was like to do a group ride with them.  Boy was I in for a pleasant surprise.  Fantastic group of people, and a great ride through areas I hadn't been before and where I probably wouldn't have gone by myself.  I think we ended up riding about three hours.  Hit a few challenging (for me) hills and overall just had a fantastic day.  The only bad parts were 1) my bike 'ghost shifting' in my low (climbing) gears and thus making the climbs 10 times harder then they had to be, and 2) getting caught in my clips and majorly biting the back of one of my legs with the opposite petal.  

BUT, there was one positive to all of that.  When one of the other riders took my bike for a spin to see if he had fixed my ghost shifting problem... HE nearly wrecked because he couldn't unclip.  All this time I thought I was just dorky and uncoordinated and part of the problem was that my clips were too tight!  He adjusted them for me and I have to say, I'm 100% more confident when coming to a stop that I can get out of my clips and not fall over!

The goals for this week are:

1) get in some quality weight training

2) spend some time doing yoga (trying to solve a tightness issue in my back)

3) clean up the nutrition!

4) Train

The training plan is:

Monday - Rest

Tuesday - Tempo run

Wednesday - Tempo swim/Tempo Bike

Thursday - Speed work (run)

Friday - Rest

Saturday - Bike/Run Race Sim Brick

Sunday - Open water swim

I'm finally starting to feel a little fire in my belly again - it's good to be back!

Lose It! Weekly Summary for Week of Mon, May 31st

Weekly Summary for Week of Mon, May 31st

for Shawn Mueller-Boddy

Daily Summary
	Budget	Food	Exercise	Net	+/-	Weight (lbs)
6/2/10	1,333	0	0	0	-1,333	207.4
6/4/10	1,333	0	0	0	-1,333	207.4
6/5/10	1,357	3,343	1,810	1,533	176	211.1
6/6/10	1,357	1,334	0	1,334	-23	211.1
153 calories over budget for the week
Gained 3.7 pounds this week

Nutrient Summary		% Calories
Fat	203g	40.3%
Saturated Fat	62g
Protein	259g	22.8%
Carbohydrates	420g	37%
Sugars	129g
Fiber	29g

Exercise Summary		Calories
Running	45 Min	528
Bicycling	1 Hour 5 Min	980
Swimming	20 Min	302
Total	1810

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Well,  this has been a tumultuous year.

I've gained weight I didn't want to gain.  I've not trained the way I wanted to train.  I've had to change plans dozen of times (it seems).  And yet, yesterday, I finally got out and did a Triathlon.  It was a sprint, but, I did it.  And despite all the set backs of the year, I didn't do as bad as I had thought I would.  Hey, I didn't come in last! In fact, I think I might have even seen a slight improvement on my bike.

Overall, I have a lot of work to do to get back to the shape I was in last year, but I'm willing and ready to do it!

Next weeks a recovery week, with short runs and rides to recalibrate my baseline, then it's back to serious training to see how much I can improve before doing the same race on July 10th.

I'll have some fitness goals soon - weight goal - I'm going to drop 16 lbs.