I feel like I've been losing the same five pounds over and over! Because I have!
Progress is just crawling and I've been KILLING the workouts for over a week and and thought my body might be reacting positively at least a LITTLE - but no. The scale is CRAWLING downwards. I bounces down a little one day than back up again the next.. then down a little again. Yes, overall I'm seeing a trend but it isn't enough! I'm sick of this body, sick of being fat and out of shape. I've turned around my diet and exercise -- now I want my results and I want them NOW!!
It feels like I got fat overnight.. until I see that I was last in a shape I really loved in 2006.. over 10 years ago! I need to ride this out. Results will come. I just need something else to focus on. Clothes/measurements... Nope, don't see anything yet. Pictures? HA! no! I'm able to walk now - whereas before more than 15 minutes or so on my feet would cripple me so that's a positive. It's a start I suppose... a small one, but a start.
But oh to be here again!
or even just here!
Even just to be in the 'before' photo shape!
I want to cry I want to scream I want to beat something, I want to curl up and sleep - hide from it all... BUT surprisingly I don't want to eat! I'm angry...but not defeated!
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