This week hasn't been so bad...
I've been eating a lot of greans (salad every day for lunch), trying to keep my portions in control and eliminate the snacking. of all those things I would say I was a success. I'm still feeling crappy physically. My clothes don't fit, I'm tired and just generally unhealthy feeling. I'm willing to give myself some time to get over that.
Mentally I'm struggling. I hate where I'm at, but at the same time finding myself having to really 'work' to be strong. I'm arguing with myself about food and having to fight myself to not negotiate 'comprimise'. I know I'm not feeling strong. One of the first cues is that I'm finding myself attracted to every ad I see for weight loss programs and even 'quick fixes'. Even though I know they don't work I still have to fight myself not to spend MORE money looking for that magic bullet.
There is no magic bullet.