Well last week turned out interesting...
Wednesday I woke up and discovered I couldn't walk across the room. I was so dizzy that even while lying down it felt like I was on a merry go round.
By Thursday I thought I felt better - took the day off from exercise just in case.
Friday the BLEHS were back. No dizziness but a headache and complete exhaustion. I took a bad thing and made it worse by not eating properly.
Saturday, again with the blahs. I at least was back 'on the wagon' with food. No problems there.
Sunday - well thank God it was a free day.
Today - well I think I have an idea of what's going on at least. I'm thinking sinus infection, perhaps edging toward ear infection? What's bothering me more then anything is the total exhaustion. I got up at 4:00 this morning, got my gym clothes on and actually packed my car and turned it on. I was shaking and felt sick to my stomach I was SO TIRED! So I turned off the car and went back in and went to bed. Ended up sleeping until 7:00!! I drove myself to the Ferry and then took a 30 minute nap while on there. Even then when I got to work all I've wanted to do all morning is lay my head on the keyboard and go back to sleep. Even after popping two aliev I've got a headache behind my eyes and I'm having trouble focusing on the screen.
BUT - I have done some things right today. Last night I planned all my meals for the day and I've got them packed and sitting in the fridge. No temping myself by going to the store for lunch when I'm feeling vulnerable.
As for a workout. I don't see a heavy leg day in my future - a thought that makes me VERY sad. But I will do something!! even if it's just a 30 minute walk on the treadmill. I will end this string of yellows and do what I can. I've got a bad attitude I suppose. If I can't give 100% I feel like I shouldn't even bother. THAT's not going to get me anywhere.
I've got two more days in January - I'll recap the month on the first. I'm looking forward to February. I've got some small changes in mind that just might get this body of mine to start giving me the results I want...
I did two things last night - 1 I downloaded Diet Power to try a for a few days. I LOVE my fitday PC but I want to see how Diet Power does tracking my metabolism.
I also ordered a set of motivational CD's from Susan Powter. Say what you will about the woman but she's lost 133 lbs and KEPT it off for YEARS now. Personally I love her motivational style and her 'Don't be stupid' attitude. One of my favorite lines of hers is 'There is no motivational Fairy'. You can bet that I'll be checking my mail every day with eager anticipation until they come. I'm going to rip the CD's and dump them onto an MP3 player so I can listen while I run and while I ride the ferry. I also should be getting 'The Thin Commandments' on CD soon. Maybe those voices in my ears will help to battle the voices in my head.
I know it sounds like a cop out, but my self esteem has really been taking a battering of late and it's made it a constant battle to do right by myself. I need to call in a few reinforcements.
And that's my plan! ;)